What if...

What if it was because of something I did? What if it was because of something I ate? What if it was because of me? 

It has been exactly 1 month since it happened. Even if I keep telling myself this is for good, there are times when I wonder if I could have done something to stop it from happening. Could I have ate better? Could I have been more careful with what I was doing? 

I have no answers to these questions. I know I am not to blamed. In fact, I should be thanking God that it happened soon and not later. God loved him more. But, no matter what, I can't stop wondering. 

What if? 

#Rest in peace my baby#